you didnt know

as time keeps passing its starting to feel like we never had nothing, nothing special anyway, nothing worth mentioning.
im losing those bad habits; that at once i couldnt control
you see no more checking up on you
to see how youre doing or who youre talking to
i dont care enough to go check anymore.
and this time around..
i dont have to fight myself.
trying to keep it cool,
like taking off a pair of glasses, i DONT need,
now i see the truth!
youre much smaller than i thoought you to be im not so worried like before,crying over you to my friends on the phone, i feel like im moving on finally dropping the dead weight that wouldnt let me move and that is you!
no more worrying about if you'll call cuz deep down i know you wont;
and its okay my cell phones turned off and its okay
im not stressing i dont care, i have a new number that you dont know
its starting not to bother me that;
theres no way for you to contact me.
im slowly starting to see the sunrise after the dark night, and im not gonna lie the night life was fun while it lasted..
but it feels so good to see the sun again
no more getting tricked by the nights shady ways; i could see everything thats getting hit by the suns rays.
its not bothering me to think youre with them and not me
knowing my worth amounts no where near theirs
its not a big deal anymore really
me staying would only result in me being cheated out of my worth
and now i can think back to those hurtful words you said to me:
that i dont mean anything & i never mattered.
it's alright i feel like im ready to let go;
i feel just about ready to delete those last words you told me from my phone
im DONE over-analyzing your words tryna find a hidden meaning
that i well know DOESN'T exist.
realizing i just wasted my time with you but im not bitter..
no more.
you dont even phaze me at this point all i can say is fuck it,
it is what it is and now that i got my mind cleared
i can actually mean it this time unlike before
when i said it cuz you hurt me.
but, YOU never mattered and its true.
not gonna keep rambling about you
and how youre garbage, you already know
because i told you.
but thats not the point,
it's just to say you dont get the last laugh like you probably thought you did
its to take away that satisfaction you thought you had
so you can wipe that smile off youre face like you won
because you just won a battle, but you lost the war.